Dear my beautiful son/daughter,
I want you to know just how much I love you. I want you to know how much I want you. I want you to know that I will get you. I promise.
I may not be ready or capable right now, but I’m trying. I know I need to try harder, but I’m trying to stay healthy for you. For the ability to carry you and keep you safe.
One day I will be ready. I will have all the abilities to create you inside me, because I know that you will be the most incredible thing to ever happen to me. I know that whatever I feel and think about myself, that the ability to look after you is the most beautiful and courageous thing I could ever do.
You put things into perspective for me.
You remind me what life is about.
You give me a purpose.
And I can’t wait for the day when I learn about you. When I feel you inside me. When I speak to you and you speak to me. For when I see you for the first time. When we meet and I realise it’s all worth it.
I owe you everything. You are the one that will get me through this. You are my motivation.
I get scared sometimes, that maybe I’ll never meet you. That’s it’s too late and I’ve ruined it. But I can’t afford to think like that. For you, I must stay strong and determined.
And I will.
Goodnight my angel. I look forward to meeting you someday!